today was one of those days.
cruz and i were not seeing eye to eye. he kept disobeying. and crying. and making me so very frustrated. he kept going to time out for a minute, then going back for another minute after being out of time out for only a minute. arghh.
it was one of those days where i felt like a complete failure as a parent.
i cried as i rocked my baby tonight...wondering why he was so happy and cheerful when i had yelled at him so many times this afternoon. i cried because this parenting thing is tough, and sometimes i don't think i can do it. but as he reached up and talked about my "nose", "mouth", and "ears"...and said "sunshine" in his sweet little voice (he wanted me to sing "you are my sunshine")...i realized that even though this is the toughest job, it is also the best job.
i just need to remember that i can't do it alone. i need help every single day. from the one up above who loves my child even more than i do.
4 comments:
Carrie, this post brought tears to my eyes. You are so right ... parenting is the toughest job, but also the best job. And through it we are drawn to cling tightly to our loving Father. You are an amazing mommy for Cruz ... just wanted to tell you that, again. :-)
carrie, you are such a sweet mommy to your cruz! your honesty touched my heart.
...thank you for being so genuine, (this could sound weird) it feels good to know others feel the same way!
yes, carrie, thank you for being so honest! i have experienced the same thoughts and feelings after tough days around here. it's kinda nice to know my little guys aren't the only ones who can make a mama feel like that! but the good thing is that the good days and moments far outweigh the tough ones.
oh boy i can totally relate to your feelings! you are an amazing mommy to cruz...he is a lucky guy to have you. love, amy
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